I spent about 15 years of my life thinking I’m seriously flawed. I was the ‘in full acne bloom’ kind of teenager who grows layers and layers of shell to withdraw into. My spotted skin wasn’t really a problem; the way people defined beauty was. But I was too young to realize that. The way they ranted about it appalled me. It was pure sadism the way it was uncaringly pointed out that my beauty was ruined, that my chances of landing a good husband were as marred as my face, that the scars would remain for life. Little did they realize that their lack of empathy would disfigure me more than a skin bump ever could. For a long time, my self-esteem remained fluid at best. In my late 20s though, it became apparent that there were far more important things than worrying about a mere reflection in the mirror. I often liken this kind of realization to a shifting of the tectonic plates that cause the earth to move. And move I did – from hackneyed beliefs, from narcissism, from who I was expected to be.
Over the years, I have been fortunate to be blessed with people who never let me forget my worth. My daughter, Rhea is one such person. She doesn’t use words to express her love, but when she hugs, it’s like the ardor of the love gods descending on you! She is without a doubt, one of the most loving people I know. Recently, I received a book in the mail; a surprise New Year’s gift from her. It was an adult coloring book, the kind used for meditative purposes. In choosing that gift she had expressed so much. It was her way of sustaining my creativity, encouraging my growth and in the process simply saying that I matter. To me, that kind of expression is beauty in its most dazzling form.
In his book, ‘Who Will Cry When You Die?’ Robin Sharma writes about creating a love account. He talks about how our random acts of kindness and selfless acts of beauty can make someone’s day better. He urges us to practice being more loving by making a few deposits in this very special reserve by doing something small to add joy to the life of someone around us. A simple text message asking how someone’s day was, sharing a favorite song, recounting an anecdote or episode, a warm hug, a small little surprise in the mail are little things that say ‘you are loved and appreciated.’ Making at least one person feel worthy should be rated as our best achievement on any given day.
There’s an interesting story about an African tribe that’s been doing the rounds on the internet lately. The identity of the tribe is debatable, but that’s not what I want to talk about. What fascinated me was the story itself. In this tribe, whenever a person misbehaves, he is summoned to the centre of the village. Everyone gathers around him in a circle. Then one by one, each person present speaks to him about all the good he has done in the past. They talk about his strengths, kindnesses and virtues. This ceremony stems from the belief that we are all inherently good, but sometimes we make mistakes. The tribe sees those mistakes as a cry for help. By reminding him of all his goodness, they reconnect him to his true, pure self. In my last post, I recounted how my teacher, Mr. George proved that faults are best corrected by love. This story corroborates that belief. How beautiful it is that someone reminds you of your wholeness when you’re broken; your beauty when you feel ugly.
One particularly enlightening lesson came to me from a friend recently when he referred to me as a ‘kasturi-mriga’ or musk deer. When this particular deer catches wind of the alluring aroma of musk, he rambles on in pursuit of its source. The poor soul doesn’t realize that the sweet fragrance resides nowhere but in its own navel. At a forlorn moment that little reminder lifted me out of my despondency. We are quite often like the kasturi-mriga, searching without for what is all along lying within.
As I open myself up to life, the meanings and lessons become more discernible. Every morning I wake up in anticipation of what lies ahead and as the day draws to a close, I deliberate over the significance of what ensued. My favorite realization is that there is so much yet to learn, but some things I am certain of. I am clear about my vision of beauty and uphold the importance of being beautiful. I am convinced that beauty is not about how you look. It is about courage and smiling through your tears. It is being there for someone who needs you, listening to a friend who is pouring their heart out even if you yourself are broken, making people feel like they are not alone. Kindness is beautiful. Love and empathy is beautiful. Being authentic is beautiful. Unfolding and evolving is beautiful.
Such a lovely post i really enjoyed it!!
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Thank you, Sophie. : )
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It is important to feel beautiful, no matter what.
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Yes, it is. Thank you so much for your comment.
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Wow I’m blown away by your post! Thank you so much for sharing that.
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Thank you for the comment, Amel.
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Beautiful, beautiful, beautiful, that’s what you are to me.keeeeeeep rooocking,luv
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Thank you, Shashi. Really appreciate that you always are always so supportive. : )
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This is so lovely…wonderful to read! X
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Thank you. : )
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Very true Renica. We always make our judgments for our oneself by what others are feeling.. which may not be correct. We are the masterpiece. Only one of a kind.
What you said about being curious on every morning. Osho once said in one of his discourses that we should learn something from a tree. Everyday it unfolds new leaves and shed the old ones. I feel that we need not keep the track of number of leaves. Isn’t it ?
Great article again Renica. Keep writing.
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Thank you, V. And great metaphor from Osho. 👍
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Since turning 20 I’ve stopped worrying as much about my flaws. The hatred is still there but they aren’t that drastic to me any longer. It’s sad that we tend to focus so much on things that 1. We probably can’t change and 2. That makes us, us. Great post
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Hi Kaiesha, am glad you realised it early. Shine bright. Thank you for sharing your thoughts. : )
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V all r like the kasturi-mriga.. n kudos 2 Rhea to make u feel so valued…
N v shud b like the African tribe..
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Thank you, Ajit. And yes, bless Rhea. 😊
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Yet again, beautiful write-up on a very touchy topic.. Beauty.. You have summed it up, my friend.. Keep writing.. Keep inspiring..
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Am glad you understand the intensity of the topic, Mel. Thank you. 💕
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Beautifully written by a very beautiful person with an equally beautiful heart. Stay blessed.
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Thank you, Da. The feelings are mutual. 💕
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Nice article Ren…keep writing….they all bring back memories
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Thank you, Jee. 😊
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Very well written Ren, as usual and what an inspirational thot from Rhea !
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Thank you, Felix. Oh yes, Rhea is a blessing! 😊
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Hey ren very intense write up
Beauty is just skin deep
It’s ppl around u who mke u feel beautiful
And also its very important to be beautiful within to feel beautiful
Special blessings to Rhea
God Bless You Always Child
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Yes, true. Thank you for your comment, Mavis.
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A Wonderful, well written article. Inspiring and Introspective!
Great to see that you cracked open your Pandora’s Box(1st Para!)!
Wishes & Blesses, to your lovely daughter. Great to read all that’s written.
Keep and do preserve your style of presentation!
Each para is independent and yet intertwined.
“Beauty is not about how you look…………..”. Excellent! It’s my belief too.
As Always An Ever Inspiring Writer! Well done.
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Thank you, Ramesh. 😊
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Beauty is not in the eye of the beholder… beauty is in the mind of every person who shares their compassion, warmth, and inner light with others. Thank you for sharing your incredible thoughts with us, aunty. Simply beautiful. ❤ — Sim
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You are right, Sim. Whoever wrote that quote might have meant the ‘third eye’ ; )
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Finally i Read ur another article really awesome 👌as usual. Love to Read nd god bless ur daughter rhea for being so lovable, keep It up 👍
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Thank you, Cony. ☺
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Hi Ren, I too struggled with self worth, till I discovered this truth : Worth is determined by what one is willing to pay. I may think my property is worth 2 Cr, but if the best price I get is 1.5 Cr, that’s the true worth of the property. So how do I know my worth? I AM SO PRECIOUS THAT GOD LEFT HIS HEAVENLY THRONE, BECAME A HUMAN, LAID DOWN HIS LIFE AND PAID THE PRICE FOR MY FAULT’S, SO THAT I CAN BE WITH HIM FOR EVER. For me this truth settled the matter once and for all.
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Nice perspective, Augi. Thank you for caring enough to share. ☺👍
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” We are quite often like the kasturi-mriga, searching without for what is all along lying within” This is so relatable aunty. This piece is really inspiring for girls like me who are struggling to accept their identity. This piece is beautiful just like you! 😉
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So beautifully said…thank you.
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Glad you liked this post, Maria.
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