Lazy weekends, dishevelled hair and clandestine conversations. The kind of conversations that spring from nothing in particular; just sitting cross-legged on unmade beds, all heavy-eyed and sipping on tea. And then the words tumble out revealing long-kept secrets, drawing wide-eyed gasps. Once the hearts are emptied, the laughter rolls out, bouncing off walls amid little sighs of relief. So we sat there until the skies turned from clear to dark, and we into mere silhouettes. No one tried to reach for the light switch. We stayed that way for a while until our stomachs started rumbling and I got up to cook dinner.
My cheeky girls threw me an invention test. To make pasta sauce out of whatever I could find in the pantry. I rose to the challenge. The chatter moved to the kitchen and from there to the couch until the pasta and the words were wiped out.
This weekend I slept a lot too. It’s very unlike me. Most nights, I barely catch about 5-6 hours of sleep. And as a rule, I never sleep in daylight. But when the body starts protesting, you got to listen. So I curled up at every opportunity and fell into deep slumbers. What with all the lazing and snoozing, by Monday morning, I was energized and new.
So yeah, when I gloss about decluttering, a rule that should always take precedence is this: Follow the basics. We seem to forget that bonding, eating and sleeping are at the very core of our well-being. If we falter there, we are bound to regret it at some point. I am doing pretty good on the bonding and eating; so from here on, I plan to sleep as much as my body needs me to.
Good, sound sleep springs from a relaxed mind, advises my significant other. He should know. If anyone sleeps like a baby, it is he! As for me, my thoughts can get more tangled than my earphones. So that’s a challenge I have thrown at myself now.
Many years ago, I learnt how to meditate and practiced it too. It is said that when you reach a point of ‘no thought’, you have mastered the art of meditation. During that time, I sometimes fell into these little cracks between the avalanches of thoughts. Those were the ‘eureka’ moments. But life got in the way, I got in life’s way and somehow I drifted from that path. Now I am tip-toeing back into that zone. It’s going to be an uphill climb, slippery at times, tedious at others, but I shall persevere. This time, I hope the cracks are wider and deeper.
It’s about stepping out of the darkness. Just one candle can be enough to chase the shadows away. We can choose to be in the light. We can begin in this very moment.
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Dear Renica , your blogs keep getting more and more interesting. The way you describe the situation , I almost feel that you are lying there , and I am watching you from an invisible position and as listening to even your thoughts . Your writing creates a kind of picture in front of my eyes and like a movie the scene gets created and the stages move on. You move, you cook u sleep and you dream and sequence carries on . There is a certain meaning, a message that is hidden some where in your these rumblings . Try to find that hidden Gem and try to cloth the whole body of thoughts with it. But do keep writing , it will come out when it has to . Donot worry keep it going . Keep writing , keep sharing.
Your comments are very motivating, Mr. Bhalla. Thank you so much. My purpose will be revealed in good time, I guess. : )
Excellent article. No words to define.
The line on meditation: “It is said that when you reach a point of ‘no thought’”, reminds me of my earlier comment to a post here.
That entire para, does represent exactly the way I went about it before, and now, it has become an uphill task !!! Persevereing!
How true, we know it, it so simple, yet when we try to restart, we find it steeper to climb. !!!
Great writing as usual, Inspiring always.